Life isn't easy..just putting it out there.
Sometimes I feel like giving up, but then i come to realize that there is a person who loves me and will be with me through everything. His name is Jesus!
I have to admit, a year ago, even a few months ago, i wanted to give up. I kinda did for awhile, because life was "too hard," or that is what i thought. It was my first year of public school, and i got involved with a not so good group of people. Don't get me wrong, they were awesome and sweet people, but they did not encourage me in my walk with God. They more like discouraged me. They swore all the time, and i got caught up in that, and i was the one with the filthy mouth. I never drank, but at some time, i was tempted to. My life was not right. My life was without God. I tried to ignore him, and to think that other things would make my happy. They didn't. They made me even more unhappy. I always put on a fake smile. It was a scary life. I felt like nothing was fair, that my parents didn't treat me the way they should, in other words, giving me everything i wanted. It didn't work that way, and now i am glad.
Anyways, Then summer came along and i went to Silver Birch for Trax, it was a week of camp. Everything changed. I realized that i needed God. I needed to give my all to Him. He loves me and has a plan for me. I needed him!
I now realize that without God, my life is noting. I love him, and i am trying my best to obey and to love him. He will be with me through all my pain, trials, and also the great things. In EVERYTHING i do, i should do it for HIM!
Goodbye to the old self...THIS is my new attitude and my new self!
I lay down my plans, my future, my hopes and dreams...my EVERYTHING to you JESUS!!! :)
I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.
(Philippians 4:13)
Hey Sister!
ReplyDeleteThis is so much wisdom coming from such a young person! I wish I had learned the same lessons when I was your age. I think I didn't start to see these truths until I was in college.
I'm so proud of you for being open and honest about the things you struggled with. It's never, ever easy to do that. I want you to know that you are not alone. We all face trials, and especially the ones you are talking about. High school isn't easy, you are almost a grown-up and expected to act like one, but you're also still a kid and expected to act like one...does that makes sense? It's like you are in-between two very different roles and it makes it hard to know who you are.
Keep trusting and turning to the Lord. One of my favorite songs says "You stay the same through the ages, Your love never changes. There may be pain in the night, but joy comes in the morning. And when the oceans rage, I don't have to be afraid, because I know that You love me and Your love never fails."
I love you and again am so proud of you. I'm also sorry for all the times that I wasn't a good example of Christ's love to you...and a good example of a life in obedience to Him. You know those times I'm talking about I'm sure :) and I hope you can forgive me!
Please call me any time you need to talk. I can't wait until we can see each other again! Or, you can always text or email me if you need anything. I love you long time! :P
Your sister from another mister (or the same mister, if you're talking about the Big Man.)
-Nicole